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Sunday, August 27, 2006

its sun again.. n this oso means tt there's skool tml x(( i jus hate goin skool.. tests? hw? n all.. argh..
cried last nite again.. lols.. is been like quite sum time since i last cried.. i jus gt to realise tt i actually wanted him so so badly.. tearing jus keep flowing.. reali cant help it.. i need help i guess.. but.. hai.. nvm.. i m already like use to cryin le.. like hu cares.. yah..

hw tt i hav completed fer e past 3 daes :
maclaurin's expansion tut
integration tut (onli till qns 8)
weekly ws 5
tink basically tt's all.. hahas.. not much man zhu gan.. anyway,,i m so in love wit maths.. n now i m studyin fer tml's chi test. lols.. wiinnie is a mugger x))

wiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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3:53:00 PM

Saturday, August 26, 2006

oh.. dad is leavin to america soon.. x( sure to miss him k.. anyway.. band was alright todae.. x))
went fer tuition at nite.. it was.. no comments.. die liao la.. promo is like so soon n guess wad.. i noe nuts abt integration can.. wtf la.. headache..
anyway.. noe wad.. i start to miss ya again.. lols.. n is like i alwis miss ya on sat can.. nvm.. hai.. reali reali wiishh tt u would be back one day..
oya.. almost forgotten.. i was on e train back hm jus now.. n tis bangala.. eee.. he actually smile at me n giv me tt cheecky look.. oh gosh.. reali freak me out can.. i was like wtf can.. n oso.. i bloody hell drop my fone todae... i was headin fer tuition n suddenly tis lady came bangin into me.. wah.. my fone jus drop onto e hard concrete floor.. super heart pain can.. argh.. worst thing was.. SHE DIN APOLOGISE CAN!! wad she was jus stare at me n walk of.. fuckin pissed la!!

wiinniewiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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10:10:00 PM

Friday, August 25, 2006

did sum work todae.. finsih maclaurin's tut n ww5 x)) wanted to start on chem.. but was kinda lazy.. whee!!~ hahas.. gonna watch movie wit pei yu tml.. yea.. miss her super much can x)
havin tuition tml nite..nt reali lookin ferward to it.. lols.. but ya.. no choice..

wiinniiewiishhferhimonceagaiin_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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9:51:00 PM

Thursday, August 24, 2006

i can onli say tt he treats me super nice n super well.. but?? all i wan is u.. like wadeva can.. nvm..
anyway.. skool wasnt tt okay todae.. hai..sad lo..went to skool pretty happy.. den sth happen.. jie dao me.. den he dao me.. wah ..like suddenly all dao me.. wtf la.. but in e end all is misunderstandin.. wah. waste my tears.. i tot wad happen.. make me super worried.. n tis cause me to cry during lecture.. wth.. nvm.. everything is fine now i guess x)) no more ppl daoin me.. whee!!~ x)) skool ended pretty early todae.. at ard 3.30.. hahas.. its like e earliest can.. hahas.. actually wanted to go town wit jie n clique de.. but in e end waited fer alice till like 4.30.. all dun feel like goin le.. plus jie oso sick.. hehs.. as usual.. we went to buy bubble tea.. chatted wit jie on e way hm.. can tell tt he's super tired la.. hahas.. lols.. ok.. crappin again.. nvm ~(notice tt my jie is a he)

lols.. felt pretty silly jus now.. cried when i read his blog.. ok.. i admit i m jealous.. hai.. but wad can i do.. nvm.. waitin.. i will be holdin on to ya still.

wiinniewiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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11:37:00 PM

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

muggin again.. chem test tml.. gosh.. like wth.. haven even finish studyin x(
hai.. i dun understan.. can sumone tutor me.. hai.. tis reali cant go on.. nt concentratin in class n stuff.. promos cummin le.. winnie wth u tinkin.. still dun wan to concentrate.. hai..

anyway..this person. ok. lets name e person A. he reali treat me super nice.. concern, care n eveyrthing.. but.. i feel kinda guilty ya.. sorry A..

nya.. if u r readin tis.. but i doubtu will la.. i will reali reali be waiting.. trust me.. i will wait til u wans me back.. k.. stop askin me nt to wait.. u noe i wun de.. dear.. i reali luv ya a lot.. miss ya alot.. i wait till u r done wit all ur stuff.. even its like half a yr.. 1 yr? i will still wait.. i will keep my promised.. i dun mind u havin no time to spend wit me.. rather u hav no time to spend wit me.. den to dun wan me yah.. its more hurtin..

wiinniiewiishhferyouonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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9:48:00 PM

hai.. wah lau.. so sad again.. when will i be nt sad.x( i dun wan to sad anymore le.. mayb is time fer me to move on.. yah.. i m like fuckin jealous la.. argh.. nvm... he wun cares anymore.. why is he doin tis to me.. damn hurting.. its like.. hai.. dunno how to describe too.. i wanna cry out loud can.. can sumone jus console me.. i dun wan be alone.. pls.. i seriously wan u back.. but its seems lke u would nv noe.. nor care.. wtf is wrong.. break up.. sadness n everything.. perhaps i m too naive in e 1st place.. tinkin tt everything would last.. thinkin tt he e one.. am i reali wrong.. i dun wanna lost him.. pls.. cum back.. my heart sinks all e way to e bottom.. gosh.. i cant concentrate la. FUCK!

winniewiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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7:14:00 PM

Monday, August 21, 2006

x((
life is reali reali so incomplete without u.. miss e way u smile.. e way u tok.. e times we use to sms n meet up x(.. where hav u gone to.. pls cum back my dear.. i dun wan to walk on alone.. i reali reali dun wish to.. pray*

anyway.. econs test todae was horrible.. lols.. oh gosh.. i can predict myself failin.. yea.. i will study hard de fer e sake of ya.. or mayb fer myself bah.. hmm.. mug mug mug.. but i dun even hav e time to even start muggin can.. wah lau... super pack wit stuff.. n now.. i m waitin fer tt bloody guy to send me his pw parts.. wtf la.. super waste my time lo.. n i m still nt done wit content page.. gosh.. i need help i guess..

btw.. things arent reali gettin tt well in skool i guess.. i cant trust ya completely k.. sorry fer tt.. ohr mayb i should say i dun trust ya at all.. in fact i dun trust anyone except fer him.. opps.. i m afraid of goin to skool.. im sorry.. u say u will wait.. but wad's e point.. is like u noe all i wan is him.. ya.. nvm..
sillyLOVESpig<3
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10:49:00 PM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

i miss ya super badly x(
y dun u contact me.. hai.. will be waiting still..
i love ya still.

n ya.. pw is making me crazy can.. like wtf la.. argh.. hai.. who is e hell hu implemented pw x( its such a waste of my time.. econs test tml n i haven even started.. ok.. hahs.. lets c i will be able to pass tis time round.. *pray hard* wah.. n is like i gt a lot of hw.. but i haven even touch it yet.. headache la.. n he's like so super slack can.. argh.. reali feel like vomittin blood... hai.. pissed!!
sillyLOVESpig<3
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11:59:00 AM

Friday, August 18, 2006

hehs.. quite a lot of things happen tis week.. wah.. shall nt mention it here.. ahi.. real headache can.. gosh lo..

hw n hw n still hw.. y are there so mani hw.. wah lau.. idun even hav e time to even start studyin.. wtf can.. everydae cum hm do hw den slp.. wad's tis la.. super no life can.. sobs.

hai.. dun reali understand tt sumone can.. is like wtf lo.. y r u doin tis.. anyway.. it dun reali affect me i guess.. but still i m being dragged into e whole pic.. hai.. nvm.. hope things would be better. but hahas.. i doubt so.. wit u repeatin e same old story.. its kinda hard la.. nvm.. doesnt matter oso..

wiinniewiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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11:39:00 PM

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

no matter wad.. i will wait fer you without any regrets.. love ya still..

anyway.. skool was real tirin todae.. n i m almost fallin aslp now.. yawn.. phew.. glad tt there isnt any hw toade i guess..

wiinniiewiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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10:18:00 PM

Monday, August 14, 2006

wiinnie is missing ya every single dae.. every single hour.. n everysingle mintues n seconds.
ok mayb i should say evry now n then.. where r u..? i reali reali wan u.. feel so lost without u by my side.. i jus wan nth but u can..
wiinniiewiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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10:45:00 PM

hey.. i m goin real crazy =((
i miss you so so much can.. like alot alot.. like alot alot alot alot can.. hais.. nvm.. u will nv noe..
i wan u back.. please =(
sillyLOVESpig<3
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9:01:00 PM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

sillyLOVESpig<3
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5:10:00 PM

jialin drew tis=)

anyway.. just finish doin e econs ppt slides.. super tired!! n guess wad.. i still hav like 2 gp essay n one econs article.. oh gosh.. wtf can!! headache..

hai... was tinkin n tinkin.. mayb i should jus let u go bah.. oso dunno la.. hai.. cried last nite while cummin hm.. i reali do miss ya badly=( still love you as much as b4.. but things arent e same anymore.. everything changed.. u r no longer mine.. i wan u back!!
wiinniiswiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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5:04:00 PM

Friday, August 11, 2006

Where'd you go? I miss you so, Seems like it's been forever, That you've been gone.
wiinnie lost everything including you.. i reali reali miss ya.. pls do miss me back.. but i noe tt will nv happen de..
i wan u back can!!

anyway.. i-learn day is such a waste of my time.. argh.. still gt so mani stuff nt done.. hai.. i feel super guilty fer nt goin to meet my peers=( i m super sorry.. i reali dun hav e time.. hai..
sillyLOVESpig<3
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6:47:00 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

hai.. again i wasted my dae=( onli did one compo, maths n econs todae.. there's still more to go..

i m feelin fuckin down la..here i m tellin myself nt to cry.. but. . i reali cant.. i m jus bluffin myself=( it reali reali hurts a lot lot.. i can feel e pain.. i want nth but u.. i noe i m being navie.. but pls tell me tt u wan me back.. i cant take it anymore..i dun wanna do tis anymore.. but i cant help it.. i noe u wun cum back to me de.. wtf m i tinkin.. i feel super hurt=(

wiinniiewiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
PROMISED
10:14:00 PM

oh gosh.. tonnes n tonnes n hw to complete..wth can... arghh.. let's c.. there's 2 gp essay, 1 chi compo, maths, chem n econs.. ok practically every sub has hw=(

anyway.. i wun giv up.. although i noe it would hurt me even more.. but still i will wait.. i noe i m stupid.. wadeva k.. i jus wan u back.. y dun u understand.. nvm=((

wiinniewiishhferhimoneagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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3:21:00 PM

Monday, August 07, 2006

FUCK!! i mean fuck it can.. wad hell is tis la... arghh..

k.. back to skool.. took test todae.. yea.. sum stupid econs test which is such a waste of ppl's time. anyway. hahs.. i cheated=)0 cus i din study.. hehs.. most of em cheated la.. hahahs.. happy=) cus there isnt any pw lesson todae.. meanin i wun get irritated by"him".. hees. i noe i m mean.. but . yea. hu cares anyway..

tml gonna hav a short performance at east coast park.. jia you sr band=)) hahas.. hope i play my cornet well.. chill=) cant wait fer tml to cum.. hahs...

felt rather sad todae on e way hm.. i reali reali miss him so much=( its like alot alot alot can.. but hai.. no one wld nv noe.. same thing goes again.. i reali wanna cry out.. but tears jus wun flow.. yea.. wadeva.. like hu cares.. i jus wan u back can!!!

wiinniiewiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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6:55:00 PM

Sunday, August 06, 2006

bloggin again=)).. i jus love bloggin. hahas..
hai.. dun u tink tt tis relationship deserve another chance. perhaps u dun tink so bah =((
still feelin down i guess.. din study fer tml's test.. gonna fail badly=( anyway.. did nth much todae.. i wasted my sundae chattin on fone wit edwin n starin at my hw n notes.. such a waste of time rite.. yeah..

I never stop loving you
Just that i have stop showing it out..
A broken heart is scared of breaking again..
That's when i'll stop loving you

i reali reali dun wan tis to happen de.. but do i hav a choice.? i dun.. mayb everything may mean nth to euu bah.. u wun care at all.. i reali wanna cry.. but i cant.. tears jus wun cum out.. i dunno y.. mayb i m too hurt.. yeah.. it reali hurt inside.. but there's nth i can i do.. i m fakin my smile.. wad is tis la.. i m like tellin ppl tt i m seriously fine.. dun hav to worry.. but actually i m nt.. super hurtin=( i reali dun wan tis to happen.. pls dun do tis to me.. i wan u.. if cryin would help.. i will reali cry as long as i could.. but the fact is i dun feel better after cryin.. my eyes hurts.. n now.. its even worst. 我哭不出来. y wun u care..? pls.. i hate tis feelin..

wiinniiewiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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9:08:00 PM

wiinnie lost him.. was reali upset ytd.. cried durin band.. kinda ps la.. anyway.. i m feelin much better i guess.. life still goes on=)) but i will still wait..
felt so lost ytd... lost mood in everything.. but guess.. everything had come to an end.. its his choice.. i hav no say to it.. hai.. super super hurtin=(
anyway.. there's econs test tml. n i m in no modd to study can.. wtf.. sure fail de=((
winniiewiishferhimonceagain_.

pronounceddeadon o5o8o6
sillyLOVESpig<3
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12:12:00 PM

Friday, August 04, 2006

skool was pretty fine todae.. so happy.. din had physics test toade.. hahs.. smiles.. i m startin to smile again.. hopefully tis would reali last.. hais.. met jia after skool at amk.. den went to tamp to had dinner wit her at pasta mania=)) yumm..hahas.. den went walk walk fer a while... tot of him all of a sudden =(( nvm... things wun get any better i guess.. its liddat still.. i reali feel so super helpless.. i reali dunno wad to do noe le... pls tell me how.. hai..
anyway.. thans everyone fer their conern.. esp edwin.. =)
super nice.. although we seems so mo shen.. but it seems tt we hav noe fer quite a long time.. thans fer everything.. xie xei da jia!!
wiinniiewiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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9:14:00 PM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

todae was pretty fine=)) mus thans pig fer sort of cheerin me up.. hehes... but afterall i m stil quite sad inside.. cried ytd... i reali reali dun wanna cry anymore.. but cant help it... hai... sad.. sad.. sad.. hai.. i reali need him so badly can.. hais... but he doent seems to noe or even care.. hai.. reali reali wissh tt we could start all oevr again.. hope tt he would jus say he wans me back
=((
wiinniewiishhferhimonceagain_.
sillyLOVESpig<3
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8:42:00 PM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

tinkin n tinkin.. i tink i should reali end tis relationship.. sad.. cry agin... i tot i could like stop cryin.. but i cant.. hai... gonna delet almy post tt is related to him i guess..=((
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9:27:00 PM