Wednesday, July 30, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
speechless)):
crying seems to become part of me.
and it seems to really get worse nowadays.
there's no one for me to really cry to.
i know.
people might say.
there's still a boyfriend that i can cry to.
i can talk to.
but what i really wanted is just a friend to talk to.
just a normal friend will do.
RARRH.
why does a blog even exist.
i should must as well jot everything inside my dear diary.
and keep it personal to myself.
BLOG?
it's not personal at all.
so what the fuck am i blogging about.
RUBBISH?
truely agreed.
anyway. this might be a really long post.
cause whatever i am gonna blog today is all rubbish.
yup. rubbish.
so. stop wasting your time reading this piece of junk.
it's not worth it at all.
school commencing on sat.
oh great.
and i just came to realise that i have been rotting at home for almost 2 months.
woah.
i stayed at home almost every single day.
exceptions: weekends and two weekdays?
and dar says my fav past time is to blog surf.
LAUGHS.
let me tell you it aint my fav past time at all.
i would rather shop a alone or eat rather then blog surf.
RARRH.
will any friend really truely understands me?
why aint anyone there to share their troubles to me anymore.
why aint anyone there to acc like before.
why aint anyone there talk to me like before.
so what if i have already got a boyfriend.
does it mean everything.
i know.
i understand that i spend most of my time with boyfriend.
so what.
why aint there any sms anymore.
why must i initiate like before.
sorry.
i am not refering to anyone in particular.
just as a whole.
why am i always crying over silly stuff.
sighs.
i feel so hurt.
i feel so fucking helpless.
am i that useless.
am i so not lovable?
am i?
why cant i smile, laugh like before.
why is there only saddness in me.
why?
i aint gonna type anymore.
cause the more i type the more helpless i feel.
nights people.
i hope i will smile like before.
laugh like before.
and play like before.
PROMISED
11:09:00 PM
Monday, July 28, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
anyway.
bought 3 tops online.
not sure if its nice.
cause i cant decide on the colours.
rarrh.
whatever.
SADDED.
winnie's sick again)):
i decided not to blog about how i feel anymore.
everything shall be kept deep inside me.
i shall not tell anyone about it anymore.
its's more of like whats the point to blogging it out.
will the situation turn better.
NO. it wont.
problems will always exist.
sadness still remain.
so what's the point right.
dont you people agree.
and blogging use to make me feel a lot better.
but sad to say.
blogging nowadays seems to worsen everything.
how did this happen.
hmmm. i really wonder.
i really want to watch dark knight.
sadded):
guess. i wont be able to catch the movie.
shall let it be then.
PROMISED
12:42:00 PM
Sunday, July 27, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
i am bored la.
as usual.
winnie's so irritating.
agreed.
how irritating can winnie get
RARRH.
dont say no.
dont deny.
cause i jolly well know it better myself.
bored luh.
and there is no kind souls to entertain this irritating winnie.
how?
PROMISED
6:47:00 PM
Friday, July 25, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
good afternoon people.
anyway.
i need to buy a lot of stuff la.
but.
sadded.
i am like super broke.
things to get:
JUNN'S PRESENT. opps x:
brand new small notebook.
black shorts.
tops.
dress.
new pencil case. ( as long as it's cheap and nice)
and i am still thinking of a new bloglink.
rarrh.
oh.
dar's coming over for dinner tonight.
LOVES.
I LOVE ONG KIAN BENG((:
PROMISED
2:01:00 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
i hope and i pray.
anyway.
new blog link.
i know i am super RANDOM.
winnie wants to cry no more okay.
i am not sure is it me or what.
but somehow i just felt very stranger between the both of us.
i am not sure if this is going anywhere.
i am not sure if i am only imagining things.
sometimes i really do wonder if my concerns for you had become a headache.
or rather a form of stress.
perhaps. i bother too much.
or rather i am just too over-sensitive or protective.
am i?
perhaps i am bah.
this, i am not very sure about it.
i ponder and wonder from time to time.
you know i love you and i know you love me.
but why did things always turn out such a way.
why are there always endless conflicts going on between the both of us.
things will always happen.
that's for sure.
and i always hope it wont turn out that bad.
or rather i wont make me tear as much.
but when things really did happen.
sad to say.
i still teared like shit.
teared like some loser.
i tell you.
no one beat me.
i can just cry like there's no tomorrow.
why?
OKAY.
END OF WINNIE'S PATHETIC STORY AGAIN.
PROMISED
11:30:00 PM
sillyLOVESpig<3
i really had enough.
thinking real hard why i’m angry.
and i found out,
because you mean just too much to me.
PROMISED
1:57:00 PM
sillyLOVESpig<3dear god,
please let me cry no more.
please.
i beg you.
i dont want to cry myself to sleep everynight.
and wake up the next morning crying again.
please tell me to be strong.
tell me to cry no more.
PROMISED
1:35:00 PM
sillyLOVESpig<3speechless.
utterly speechless.
how did things turn out such way.
i really wonder.
it's hurting me way too much til the extend that i cannot even handle it.
why am i even crying.
PROMISED
1:20:00 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
ong kian beng didnt blog for so so long despite the fact that he's online everyday.
how sad right.
sighs.
sadded sadded sadded.
rarrh.
mum wash my dress.
and the purple colour flora prints kena the white clouor part.
how sad right.
winnie wanted to ask mum out tml.
but mum rejected me.
how sad right.
PROMISED
11:45:00 PM
Monday, July 21, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
and my butt hurts a lot due to the fall just now-.-
wtf.
sighs sighs.
okay.
its almost 10 i guess.
goodbye people.
goodbye all my tears.
FULLSTOP.
END OF WINNIE'S PATHETIC STORY.
PROMISED
9:54:00 PM
sillyLOVESpig<3
i am feeling rather tired now.
but but 10pm show is showing.
i shall endure.
winnie's sad.
PROMISED
9:51:00 PM
sillyLOVESpig<3
winnie fell down from the ladder.
and it hurts fucking alot.
winnie's so so clumsy that she fell from such a high ladder.
laugh people laugh.
PROMISED
9:25:00 PM
sillyLOVESpig<3
but here i am crying like some shit.
fuck.
how sad can i get.
how long will this last.
sighs.
how i wish i could disappear into thin air.
how i wish i could die now.
ya. instantly.
winnie's sick.
winnie's sick.
winnie's sick.
real sick.
i need to visit the doc.
does anyone even bother.
rarrh.
winnie's so not happy.
haish.i am not giving you any attitude at all.
believe it or not.
i admit its my bad to give such a reply.
but. in the first place your attitude wasnt that good also.
dont tell me no.
dont deny.
it's not that i went missing.
i just dont wish to make things worst.
i want to cry no more.
why am always the one crying like some fucking shit.
why isnt there a shoulder for me to cry on.
why wont you there for me to hug.
why am i even crying when its just so so dumb to cry.
so so stupid to cry over such a trival thing.
why? why? why?
why am am i so fucking fragile.
winnie's really wants to cry no more):
PROMISED
8:33:00 PM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
it's been such a long time since i last blog.
anyway.
HAPPY 5TH MONTH TO ONG KIAN BENG.
LOVES((:
i am bored la.
rarrh.
how come no one at home.
bored bored bored.
rarrh rarrh rarrh.
winnie's hungry.
winnie's wants food.
winnie's bored.
winnie's wants some entertainment.
winnie's wants to go out.
sighs.
PROMISED
11:55:00 AM
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
LOVES(:
PROMISED
11:31:00 AM
Friday, July 04, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
promised not to cry so often
feeling rather down since morning.
i woke up at 6 plus.
and i cant get back to sleep.
so decided to call dar.
sad case he didnt answer.
tossed and turned in my bed.
still cant get to sleep.
at 7 plus.
he called back.
sighs.
talk for less then 5 mins.
called ended.
still cant sleep.
and finally fell asleep at 8 plus -.-
but woke at at 8.45 again-.-
what a day to start off with.
unhappiness in me.
PROMISED
12:35:00 PM
sillyLOVESpig<3
sad to say such friends still do exists.
oh my god.
are they still call my friends?
i really wonder.
i am sad.
utterly disappointed.
speechless):
guess only yt understands why.
RARRH.
this feeling really sucks.
never did i expect it would hurt me that much.
okay.
mayb you people may find me exaggerating.
but i am not.
it really hurts me alot.
FRIENDS?
doubt they aint anymore.
PROMISED
12:27:00 PM
Thursday, July 03, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
please go away i beg you.
i promise to sleep earlier tonight.
pretty please):
sadded-.-
winnie wants more sleep.
winnie wants more friends.
winnie wants more food.
winnie wants more outing.
winnie wants more movies.
winnie wants more clothes.
winnie wants more chocolates.
winnie wants more choices in life.
winnie wants boyfriend.
winnie wants to be pretty.
winnie wants to whine no more.
winnie dont want to be left alone.
winnie hates loneliness.
winnie hates being ignore.
winnie hates staying at home.
winnie dont want unhappiness.
winnie dont want headache.
okay.
IN CONCLUSION!
winnie is such a pain.
AGREED(:
LASTLY.
WINNIE MISSES ONG KIAN BENG.
PROMISED
1:09:00 PM
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
sillyLOVESpig<3
LOVE THIS PIC ALOT(:
i cut my hair.and i look like some nerd now.please refer to pic above.anyway.i am sorry for what happen yesterday night.LOVE YOU SILLY.MY ONE AND ONLY PRECIOUS DAR. i have been eating maggie for so many couple of days.and now.here i am eating maggie again.-.-i cant seems to find anything edible at home except for this.rarrh.i hate maggie luh.BOO// okay. bad me.i skipped orientation today.too tired to go.and the place is like major far la.and and i am still jobless):
PROMISED
12:52:00 PM
WINNIE.
ONG KIAN BENG(:
